I’m just about emerging out of a hallucinatory haze, comprising the tail end of what seemed like a never ending pregnancy, a shockingly speedy labour that then segued into a shocking amount of blood loss and then two solid months (feeling like two years) of falling in love with this new being in my life and having my heart stabbed every time she cries.  And then all the while, the fashions have been going on in New York, London, Milan and Paris and I wasn’t there for the first time in about seven years.  Colleagues and cohorts have said I haven’t missed much but I think they’re just trying to make me feel better.

It’s not however necessarily the fashion that I have missed but the feeling of doing something with my brain, unclouded by feeding times, nap times, more feeding times and the occasional time when her eyes are awake, looking at you in that way that makes you feel like an awful human being for even thinking about wanting to do anything BUT look after her.  I’ve barely written a thing.  I’ve not read anything longer than a five hundred word online article (or more precisely a few panicked sentences in a baby forum that never seems to answer the question that I’m asking at 4am in the morning).  Venturing outside and breathing physical fresh air has mostly ended with my rushing back inside the house, clutching an Amazon Prime parcel or a bouquet of flowers (thanks friends, family and fashion peeps for filling our house with all that flora).

That haze is slowly clearing up though and with Nico Hiu Nei (pronounced Lei if you speak Cantonese) Salter-Lau registered and writ real into the world, I’m also beginning to think about integrating my daughter (I’m still trying that word on for size… ) into life, rather than making life revolve around her.  That could also be fighting talk that decrescendos into me staying in a nursing bra and bobbly overwashed leggings for the next week.

Still, the haze did produce something to kickstart the blog with, after the looooong hiatus.  Namely, a variety of shades of a colour that automatically accompanies and heralds the birth of a baby girl.  Thankfully, the range of pinks I’ve been receiving have been of the nuanced kind.  And they’re also things that don’t just revolve around saccharine baby gifts.  I’ve also been feeding my sleep addled brain  – online and in person – with images that are incidentally along that colour register.  On film Natalie Portman standing in the White House in a blood-splattered pink Chanel suit in Pablo Larrain’s Jackie, Naomie Harris staring down the camera with a menacing neon pink light behind her and Matty Bovan’s pink hued fashion film Girlness have been on my mind.  Wolfgang Tillmans’ skyscapes and crustacea and Ren Hang’s visceral poeticism and Maisie Cousins’ sexually charged fruits and flowers are also floating around in the noggin somewhere.  There’s little coherence below other than the shared colour palette but that’s par for course when you’re going through the postpartum pink haze.

Molly Goddard S/S 17 dress worn with Chanel t-shirt, Waven jeans and Shrimps x Converse hi-tops

Maisie Cousins

Lina Scheynius image from “09”

Sandy Liang dress with Yolke sleep mask and J.W. Anderson pink Pierce bag

Patty Carroll “Anonymous Women” series

Nico in Stella McCartney bunny knitted romper and bonnet, Soft Gallery onesie from Scandi Mini, La Coqueta booties, Studio Arhoj moneybanks and Loewe blanket

Wolfgang Tillmans, Astro Crusto, 2012 

Wolfgang Tillmans, From the Skies, 2015

Nico in Fendi Baby romper and pram blanket with Melanie Johnsson prints

Anna Barlow ceramic ice-cream tiles

Holly Hendry installation at “Wrot” Baltic Mill, 2017

Mold Magazine

Karen Walker “Transformers” sunglasses and Sophie Hulme S/S 17 Albion tote worn with Prada jumper

Ren Hang photography

Repetto “Anna” ballerinas  with Luncheon magazine issue 1

Naomie Harris in Moonlight

Natalie Portman in Jackie

Still from Matty Bovan’s film Girlness for Barbie’s 58th Birthday

Fiorucci bomber jacket 

India Mahdavi interior for Red Valentino store in London

Milo Baughman sofa from Coming Soon NY

Plys knitwear and Christopher Kane safety buckle Devine bag 

James Springall collage

Jo Brocklehurst drawing from Nobodies and Somebodies at House of Illustration

Fendi S/S 17 “Rokoko” trainer boots and Prada lace-up socks

Christian Lacroix homage editorial photographed by Roe Ethridge and styled by Katie Shillingford from AnOther Magazine S/S 17

Comments (19)

  1. Jandrew says:

    Congrats on the new baby 👶
    I love your blog don’t neglect us again . Great photo stream – pink is it !
    Jandrew
    Dress The Part
    http://jandrewspeaks.com

  2. AC says:

    Loving the pink montage!! 💞 And your squishy little bundle! What a cutie 🎀 X

  3. Vivian says:

    Congratulations, she is so precious. We’ve missed you on here, post partum pink haze looks great on you!

    Vivian | LIVE . IN . LOVE

    ~

  4. K says:

    Heart-warming! 🙂 She is beautiful, and I love her name! Congratulations!

  5. Aliki F says:

    Congrats on baby Nico, congrats on this amazing bubble gum photo shoot! So inspiring!!

  6. Jessica says:

    I know just what you mean about the knife every time she cries….
    Thank you for talking about it and not just returning as if it made no difference, becoming a Mum.
    And how brilliant of you, turning the inevitable deluge of pink into food for thought and this splendid selection of images.
    Congratulations!
    ps I’ve been reading your blog since before the Norwegian Wood cage skirt!

  7. Linda B says:

    Oh Susie, so happy to see you are “in the pink” and letting yourself be totally immersed in the glorious (yet challenging) time of new motherhood! Nico looks to be a perfect rosebud. . . Hold onto every moment of this experience.

    We’ve missed you but can certainly be patient as you post irregularly for a bit! Take good care of yourself, and get lots of rest when you can.

    By the way, you may want to check out what Lyn Slater posted last week over on Accidental Icon (http://frame.bloglovin.com/?post=5507048171&blog=12794395&frame_type=blog_feed) about her ambivalent relationship to pink. Interesting reading–when you have the energy for it!

    Love to your sweet little family. . .

  8. L L says:

    Congratulations Susie, little Nico is adorable. Don’t get creeped out, but even I wouldn’t leave her side to anything much had I baby like her. Make the best of these years. Warm Regards..

  9. cass says:

    Hi Susie, I have been a fan of yours for a very long time and I am so happy about your transition into Motherhood. It’s such a fantastic adventure, with your darling child(of course) but also within yourself. I felt my world expanding along with my heart…intermixed with pain, joy and everything in between. Your pink post is perfect. Hugs to you and your whole family. I look forward to seeing what’s next and getting peeks of your beautiful daughter. Cheers!

  10. Magda says:

    Congratulations on your baby Nico! Amazing photos! 🙂

    http://www.gloryofthesnow.com

  11. RIYKA says:

    Congratulations!
    lovely to read this post, and get OH so inspired, and also its nice to see that you have not changed over the years, and still make my heart flutter with your beautiful images and words x

  12. Jen Mitchell says:

    How you have managed to do this Susie I will never know – hats off to you!!!! I never left the house for weeks and was permanently in my dressing gown – let alone go to Wakefield. All this time with the baby is so precious, your doing fab, its lovely following you on this new journey with Nico, and the new dynamic she brings to your writing and work. Being a mum is so tough but they are so worth it and she is gorgeous – it goes so fast, my Honor is two now. Take care XXXXX

  13. Kinga Kurek says:

    You photos, this outfit, the inspiration! All of this is so incredible! I totally adore this dress, it looks sooo good on you and you really made it your own! I love how you’ve mixed all of the different images to this post and created something so creative and inspiring! <3
    kinga xx
    http://rockthisrunway.com/

  14. Mansi says:

    Mind blowing photography. Pink is beautiful! Thanks for sharing.

  15. Nico is lovely – congratulations on the safe arrival of your daughter. I enjoyed all the eye candy in this post.

  16. Hi shushi your blog is to good and your collection of pink dress is to good.

  17. it is an amazing color..its realy attract to me..

Comment below